I'm on a little challenge with myself (and the Lord 8 ) to get a certain amount of homework done by midnight tonight so this will be brief. On tonight, I want to talk about the haters. Yes, the haters.
Now before, I begin my rant I must define what I feel a hater is. I believe that a hater is a person (or institution LoL) that wishes to block you from achieving your goals and reaching your fullest potential. That's what I think a hater is. I've been called a hater before. In fact, I was called a hater a few hours ago for asking a girl why does she let some dude call her out of her name. The guy called me a hater. Really, boo boo? I don't feel I'm a hater because I'm not trying to block anyone from succeeding. If anything, I wanted the girl to think critic
ally about what she allows people to address her as.
Anyways, so.....I have haters. Not a lot here in Arkansas (I'm working on it LOL) but a whole heap of them back in California. Some used to be my close friends. When I began college last year at Clark Atlanta, I saw a vast difference in the way my friends back home treated me. All of a sudden, I was 'college girl who thought she was better than everybody'. Some of those 'friends' began to spread this before we even had any 'post-college' communication! Imagine that! Two months into my freshmen year and already I'm hearing a chorus of 'YOU'VE CHANGED, SADE!' My first X-Mas break was the worst! The only friends I had were college students themselves and even my family started treating me differently (not all of them..not even most...just a select few). What depressed me most was that a lot of the people who claimed that I 'was such a bad person now' were the people that I planned to help within the future working in the Child Welfare System. The people that knew what I went through and how I was raised (because they were raised the same way) now claimed that I had 'forgotten' where I came from.
So I address each claim: Do I think I'm better than anybody? No. Do I try to do the best in all that I attempt? Yes. If you don't understand the difference between the two...then that's your problem....Next, have I changed? HELLL YEAA! I mean, I've been gone for a year! You grow! That's naturally! If I came back after a year of college and was the same person I was before I left, then something wouldn't be right! I'm not the same person I was. If you can't understand that, then again...it sounds like a personal problem...Lastly, I've forgotten where I've come from....Lord, how I wish this were true! YEP! I said it! I wish I could forget! Why would I want to remember where I cam from? Would you like me to go down the list of reasons why I dont want to remember the past? It haunts me every damn day! I don't want to be associated with that part of my life. I deserved better than what I got.....However, I can't change the past...so I just wake up every morning and hope that it will get easier to deal with at some point. WHAT I have remembered is that there are 1000s of kids in Alameda County who were raised just like I was...and that there are 100,000s of them in the U.S. What I do remember is that they are the reasons that I am in college now. They are the ones I plan to help.
So to those friends, foes, associates and who knows...the 'eww she uglies' 'and hella lame' or the 'she hella fake and she done changed' ...to naysayers and raters..or to the professional game players...you have all been transformed to the category of HATERS!!!
I would ask for a speech but right now, I just can't be reached....Please try your call again.
Now before, I begin my rant I must define what I feel a hater is. I believe that a hater is a person (or institution LoL) that wishes to block you from achieving your goals and reaching your fullest potential. That's what I think a hater is. I've been called a hater before. In fact, I was called a hater a few hours ago for asking a girl why does she let some dude call her out of her name. The guy called me a hater. Really, boo boo? I don't feel I'm a hater because I'm not trying to block anyone from succeeding. If anything, I wanted the girl to think critic
ally about what she allows people to address her as.Anyways, so.....I have haters. Not a lot here in Arkansas (I'm working on it LOL) but a whole heap of them back in California. Some used to be my close friends. When I began college last year at Clark Atlanta, I saw a vast difference in the way my friends back home treated me. All of a sudden, I was 'college girl who thought she was better than everybody'. Some of those 'friends' began to spread this before we even had any 'post-college' communication! Imagine that! Two months into my freshmen year and already I'm hearing a chorus of 'YOU'VE CHANGED, SADE!' My first X-Mas break was the worst! The only friends I had were college students themselves and even my family started treating me differently (not all of them..not even most...just a select few). What depressed me most was that a lot of the people who claimed that I 'was such a bad person now' were the people that I planned to help within the future working in the Child Welfare System. The people that knew what I went through and how I was raised (because they were raised the same way) now claimed that I had 'forgotten' where I came from.
So I address each claim: Do I think I'm better than anybody? No. Do I try to do the best in all that I attempt? Yes. If you don't understand the difference between the two...then that's your problem....Next, have I changed? HELLL YEAA! I mean, I've been gone for a year! You grow! That's naturally! If I came back after a year of college and was the same person I was before I left, then something wouldn't be right! I'm not the same person I was. If you can't understand that, then again...it sounds like a personal problem...Lastly, I've forgotten where I've come from....Lord, how I wish this were true! YEP! I said it! I wish I could forget! Why would I want to remember where I cam from? Would you like me to go down the list of reasons why I dont want to remember the past? It haunts me every damn day! I don't want to be associated with that part of my life. I deserved better than what I got.....However, I can't change the past...so I just wake up every morning and hope that it will get easier to deal with at some point. WHAT I have remembered is that there are 1000s of kids in Alameda County who were raised just like I was...and that there are 100,000s of them in the U.S. What I do remember is that they are the reasons that I am in college now. They are the ones I plan to help.
So to those friends, foes, associates and who knows...the 'eww she uglies' 'and hella lame' or the 'she hella fake and she done changed' ...to naysayers and raters..or to the professional game players...you have all been transformed to the category of HATERS!!!
I would ask for a speech but right now, I just can't be reached....Please try your call again.
2 comments:
GOOD POST..I THINK WE ALL HAVE H8RZ...GIRL BRUSH EM OFF & KEEP IT MOVIN...LOL...
I'm definitely feeling this post. It speaks directly to all haters! People will always have their opinions of things. Many people considered (and still do) me as a square. I mean after going thru foster care and juvenile justice of course I want a good life and want to do what's right. I look at where and I am where them cats are at and I'm like well I'm glad to be a square. So people can CALL us whatever they want but its what we ANSWER to. In addition, I have learned to define my own name for things. Like when I get called aquare I define it as a future millionaire or something positive. Plus everybody knows my policy. You can call me what you want but if you put your hands on me you gonna get knocked the f*** out. :) hey its jus how I was raised. Anyways, Sade keep doin your thing you are truly destined for greatness and I want to be there every step of the way.
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